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Journal Entry: Sat Jan 2, 2010, 3:12 AM



Happy new year everyone! :party:

I thought I'd get rid of my previous journal which was a little depressing.
I'm still looking for inspiration, but I think I'd rather start the year with a more hopeful viewpoint than I had at the end of the year.

Any new year's resolutions anyone?
I haven't figured mine out yet. Last year's was to learn fire poi. And this I did - and I love it. I'd like to learn something new this year - but I still need to think about it.

The last few months have been really tough. My boyfriend's mom has terminal cancer (we only found out it was uncurable a week ago) - so I'm just trying my best to be there for them. It's really tough to watch someone deteriorate in that way - and it happens so fast too.
At the same time, it makes you appreciate life - and we really shouldn't take things or eachother for granted.

I'm currently reading "Digital Photography Masterclass" by Tom Ang. It's a really good read, and the tips are helpful. I haven't gotten very far yet, but one of the quotes I like so far regarding exposure is that the correct exposure is what you want it to be. This is really relevant for me because I'm always worrying about the technical aspect of the photo: am I using the correct shutter speed, or aperture, or white balance, or ISO etc etc etc. I forgot that the correct settings are what I WANT them to be - as long as the end result appeals to the majority, I have gotten it right. And even if it doesn't appeal to the majority, the picture has still be created in the way I wanted it to be.
It's almost like a revelation for me... lol. But I do know I still need to work on perfecting my skills.

Anyway... I think I've run out of things to say at the moment.
I wish you all a blessed and prosperous new year. I hope you fulfill your dreams & wishes, and that opportunity knocks on your door, and if not, then at your windows!
Hugs & stuff :hug: :glomp:

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dissipated inspiration

Journal Entry: Wed Nov 11, 2009, 11:51 AM


dissipated inspiration



I have been really busy this year. Work has taken up most of my time, and coming in second is dancing & teaching. This means I haven't had much time for being creative.

I can't remember what it is to be creative. I think about taking a photo, and it seems so daunting to setup a scene - something I used to relish. Nowadays I read more articles about photography than actually pressing the shutter button.
I've managed to do some event photography - but that really is not the same as making up some crazy picture full of colour and using my macro lens - and then hoping just one person would like my craziness (ie my expression).

I've looked at so many photos for ideas, I've studied how they took the shot - but I never actually do one myself. Oh, I can give advice too to friends on how to take a good photo - but once again, I never do it myself.

What is it that takes away our creativity? I know being busy & stressed is a big part of it. I also think worrying about the technical details is a part of it too. And then I start to feel like a fake, like I'm pretending to be some "artist", going through the motions, but never coming up with anything awe-inspiring. I know I should get back to basics, and just forget the rules - but I can't seem to get this right. And the thought of going back to the beginning is just as daunting.

I don't expect anyone to "cure" my uninspired-ness. I just felt like talking. Maybe there is someone who understands what I mean. Or maybe I'm just looking for excuses.

Anyways... on account of my being so busy thanks to my day-job, I haven't read many journals, or seen anyone's deviations for the last six months. I just deleted 2500 items from my message centre. It's just too much to keep up.

I hope everyone is doing well, and maybe I can catch up on some deviations when they start flowing in again (as they always do). :P

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Need a change

Journal Entry: Fri Jun 26, 2009, 4:00 AM
Just need a change.... but don't know what... ;P

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Nervous

Journal Entry: Fri Apr 24, 2009, 11:49 AM
Hey hey....
So I'm definitely a grown up now... hahaha... I've been told I'm well on my way now that I'm 31... yet I still feel like I'm 23! :crazy:

Anyways.... I'm nervous.... because I get to do a photoshoot this weekend with real live people... hehehe
At least I'll know everyone, seeing as they're my fellow belly dancers. We're all getting dressed up in our professional costumes and having makeup done professionally too. And then I get to play the part of photographer.
I really hope I don't screw up.

Well wish me luck!

Hope everyone is doing well... hugs & stuff :hug:'zzz

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Not really an update

Journal Entry: Tue Mar 24, 2009, 8:34 AM
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Hey

I figured I should do some kind of an update, since it's been a long time already...

I've decided to take a break with regards to photography, and not put myself under pressure, and rather just "let inspiration come to me" (as someone else put it).

In the meantime, I've still been quite busy with my belly dance classes (teaching & learning). And I've started learning fire poi as well (which is actually quite fun). I haven't started dancing with the fire poi lit yet - I still need a few more lessons for that... :D

I'm hoping to come up with a "syllabus" for another new prop in the belly dance world. It's called fan veil and seems to be very popular in the USA. It's still very very new in South Africa - and as such, there isn't anyone to teach us. So my sister and I have decided to come up with some kind of syllabus for our students.

Work is work - and nothing to really talk about (that's the nature of being an accountant in my day job)... lol

I've also gotten very interested in make-up lately. I know it must sound so frivolous but I think proper make-up application will come in handy one day for portraiture photos. Also, as a dancer who performs on stage, I do actually need to learn proper stage make-up. :crazy: any tips, anyone?

I haven't been able to comment on people's journals and/or deviations lately - so I apologise up front for that. I have, however, faved a few here & there. I try to keep up, but I watch about 100 deviants - and that adds up! :P

I also want to thank everyone who has happened to fave some of my work - I just don't have the time to go to everyone's individual pages right now (as I always used to do in the past) - so hopefully one day I can get back to doing this again.

And, according to DA birthdays, it's my birthday in 11 days... woohoo! :cake:

Hope everyone is doing well and as always, please keep me updated.... hugs & stuff :hug:

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Absence is to love what wind is to fire; it extinguishes the small, and enflames the great ~ Anonymous

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