I have been really busy this year. Work has taken up most of my time, and coming in second is dancing & teaching. This means I haven't had much time for being creative.

I can't remember what it is to be creative. I think about taking a photo, and it seems so daunting to setup a scene - something I used to relish. Nowadays I read more articles about photography than actually pressing the shutter button.
I've managed to do some event photography - but that really is not the same as making up some crazy picture full of colour and using my macro lens - and then hoping just one person would like my craziness (ie my expression).

I've looked at so many photos for ideas, I've studied how they took the shot - but I never actually do one myself. Oh, I can give advice too to friends on how to take a good photo - but once again, I never do it myself.

What is it that takes away our creativity? I know being busy & stressed is a big part of it. I also think worrying about the technical details is a part of it too. And then I start to feel like a fake, like I'm pretending to be some "artist", going through the motions, but never coming up with anything awe-inspiring. I know I should get back to basics, and just forget the rules - but I can't seem to get this right. And the thought of going back to the beginning is just as daunting.

I don't expect anyone to "cure" my uninspired-ness. I just felt like talking. Maybe there is someone who understands what I mean. Or maybe I'm just looking for excuses.

Anyways... on account of my being so busy thanks to my day-job, I haven't read many journals, or seen anyone's deviations for the last six months. I just deleted 2500 items from my message centre. It's just too much to keep up.

I hope everyone is doing well, and maybe I can catch up on some deviations when they start flowing in again (as they always do).

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